I’ve never had to put one of my kids in daycare. I was lucky. I was a stay at home mom with all of my girls. My ex is probably one of the worst people I have ever met, but his time in the military gave me the chance to be home with my girls and I can at least be thankful for that. Tomorrow I go back to work after almost 3 months of maternity leave. Leaving my son for the longest yet. He doesn’t start his actual home daycare for about 2 months, but still I have to be away from him. I don’t know why anyone chooses to do this. It sucks and I haven’t even started yet. I can only hope that knowing he is with someone I have known for 29 years makes it a little easier on me. I’m gonna miss those chubby little cheeks and big blue eyes. He is just starting to smile at me and I have to give that up for 9.5 hours everyday. That’s life though. People always say “I don’t know how you do it.” Well, it isn’t an option. I do it because it has to be done. So tomorrow I will get up, get ready for work and when I leave that sweet little baby with one of my best friends it will be because I have to.